Contention
In 1992, to capitalize on Nirvana's astonishing success, Geffen cobbled together a collection of unreleased tracks, demos, rarities, and alternate versions. Cobain, ever the provocateur, called it Incesticide. The frontman seized the opportunity to write a withering broadside in the liner-notes that proved so controversial it was omitted from later pressings. "At this point, I have a request for our fans," Cobain wrote, in his 'open letter.' "If any of you in any way hate homosexuals, people of different colour, or women, please do us this one favour for us - leave us the fuck alone! Don't come to our shows, and don't buy our records."
Cobain's vocalized frustrations came at the culmination of a year in which the band, having grown into a corporate behemoth, had to deal with criticism from their initial audience: punk-rock fans. As someone who loved nothing more than "pure underground music" —his favorite bands at the time included The Vaselines, The Raincoats, Os Mutantes, and Young Marble Giants— it hit Cobain where it hurt. "I felt terrible," he told Sassy, "to be shunned by this claim that just because you are playing the corporate game you are not honest."
"I don’t blame the average seventeen-year-old punk-rock kid for calling me a sellout," Cobain said, in a '92 interview with Rolling Stone. "I understand that. Maybe when they grow up a little bit, they’ll realize there’s more things to life than living out your rock n' roll identity so righteously."
In February of 1992, Cobain had married his girlfriend, Courtney Love of the band Hole. In August of that year, their daughter, Frances Bean Cobain, was born. In an interview with The Los Angeles Times in 1992, Cobain credited that union with helping keep him off the edge. "I guess I must have quit the band about 10 different times in the last year," he said. "I'd tell my manager or the band, but most of the time I would just stand up and say to Courtney, 'OK, this is it.' But it would blow over in a day or two."
Cobain lamented that "the biggest thing that affected [him] was all the insane rumors, the heroin rumors," yet, both he and Love had gone on the record confessing to using the drug. "To escape from it all I did heroin for quite some time," Cobain told Dutch magazine OOR.
Legacy Cemented
Out of that dark period came In Utero, one of the bleakest albums ever to debut at #1 worldwide. Having wanted to "record a really raw album for almost a year," Nirvana hooked up with producer Steve Albini, the former Big Black and Rapeman frontman renowned for his simple, unfettered approach to production. Said Cobain, to OOR, of the album: "the image of the group had been hyped up to outrageous proportions, we had the idea it didn't matter what we recorded: it would sell anyway."
The results didn't go down well with Nirvana's vested corporate overseers. "My A&R man called me up one night and said, ‘I don’t like the record, it sounds like crap, there’s way too much effect on the drums, you can’t hear the vocals.’ He didn’t think the songwriting was up to par," Cobain told Melody Maker. "A few other people —our management, our lawyers— didn’t like the record either."
Though Cobain felt like he didn't make "negative record" —lead single "Heart-Shaped Box"'s chorus of "Hey/Wait/I’ve got a new complaint" was him joking about his portrayal in the media— in Utero is clearly the chronicle of a troubled soul.
If Nevermind's leadoff song, "Smells Like Teen Spirit," set the tone for that album, so, too, did In Utero's opening track "Serve The Servants." Though Cobain claimed the album was "about disease, bad health and the feeling of being trapped," it plays like a meditation on self-loathing. Its sardonic, cynical, ironic opening lines —"Teenage angst had paid off well/Now I'm bored and old"— set the tenor for the record, which Cobain initially wanted to call I Hate Myself And I Want To Die.
Things Fall Apart
At the time, that shelved working-title seemed like comedy, but less than a year later, it seemed like a sad cry-for-help. After Nirvana had played their legendary MTV Unplugged set in November of 1993 —later enshrined on both album and video— Cobain tripped into a downward spiral of drug-abuse and sickness.
After one heroin overdose, and another on Rohypnol and alcohol, all of Nirvana's immediate tour-dates were cancelled. Cobain, at the behest of his wife and friends, checked into a rehab center in Los Angeles. After only one day, Cobain climbed a fence, took a taxi to LAX, and flew back to Seattle. His whereabouts unknown by family and friends, Cobain committed suicide in his Lake Washington home on April 5, 1994, although his body was not located until three days later.
"I haven't felt the excitement of listening to [and] creating music," his suicide note read, in part, "for too many years now." Seemingly thinking about the power and integrity of his music until the very end, Cobain's legacy as devoted genius was sealed.
